Ammonia?

I have not been able to do very much with my hands for the last 6 months because all the seeds were in growing mode, got too big for the skin to contain them and started bursting out---what is refered to in this modality as "lesions". But, oh whoa, it is not just exactly the seeds in the packets it is also the seeds on the ropes. In the spring they all grow. All of the elements of this propagation are going on all the time but growing season is the worst. Last year I almost died. I was covered with it all. When I took a bath there was a black ring from the spores-seeds. Then the cotton balls came out in the bath----looked like dandylion seeds in the bath water. Just like an algae float. I was so sticky everything I touched was covered by a waxy residue. I could not wear clothes that touched my body due to pain and itch. I was so weak I could not drive 4 blocks to the nearest store without having to sit in the car for ten minutes to rest up. If there were more than 3 people in line I would just have to leave. I have been Queen of Denial or Swedish Stoic all my life and in this situation it could no longer work. The pan handlers outside of 7-11(my grocery store--prices better than standard even if choices are fewer)--started saying God Bless you sister instead of asking me for a handout. Oliver, my youngest son, was in Italy at the time and picked up that I was close to death and told me that he knew. I knew that my body was almost too poisoned to stay in it. I was not ready to go. My affairs were not in order. You know how it is to die. The container of flesh becomes too small and you start expanding out of it. I felt that and said I am not ready. So here I am today cleaning my floor with ammonia because my hands are usable(I am not saying not without lesions but they are on the palms of my hands and the backs of my fingers and I can use them) and then see the plant everywhere. I sprayed a solution of ammonia on the hardwood floor and noticed it bubbling up. Weird. I looked closer and saw the wax melt and only fibers and hair were left. I have been living with this thing for a year and a half and know all of its characteristics. It is very straightforeward and simple. This plant is trying to propagate itself everywhere; so does every other plant, mold, bacteria, (and man)etc. So I am not in wonderment or criticism here, my main concern is how do you get this thing to live on you? I am terrified to be around anyone for fear that they may get it from me or my house. No one should get this thing, not even Hitler. I am still alone with no answers because who wants to talk to a nobody--perhaps a crazy person--or someone who is going to blow their shaft. I don't know. I feel sad tonight--not hopeless but sad. Anyway it seemed that the fairly week solution of ammonia that I used for cleaning had a curative effect on my skin so I put it on my head. We who are suffering will try anything.

Yes, I did...

Howdy hi!! The bad stuff first. A comment was posted from morgellonspgpr.wordpress.com yesterday and the person had the audacity to say I will never find the cause-just work on becoming symptom free. I figured he had squeezed a snake and got some kind of oil out of it that he was selling. Decide for yourself. The moment was right so I plead our cause to Oprah. Who is more powerful than her? She says jump and you become airborne (no pun intended). I will try anything. I told her I did not want to be on TV, but I would adore to meet her. Maybe she can just do the story and I won't have to go. I read a bunch more creepy medical reports and in North and South America anyway, there is something called SPIROTRICHIOSIS which has something in common with the black specks, etc. It lives on grasses and you have to inhale alot of spores or get them into an open wound. The treatment is Potassium Iodide and/or Itraconazole. There is that zole again. I guess it is that I am poor that no doctors want to help me--by poor I mean no medical insurance they can milk. The first dermatologist I saw kept saying "but you are self pay". I am a Real Estate Agent, had been off work for two weeks, had $25,000 in the bank, the visit was $65.00 and she did not want me to come back. Go figure. Whatever happened to the Hippocratic Oath? Is it now hypocrisy? ....snark... the Hypocrisy Oath. Oh, that was bad. I meditate and pray for all of us every day.

view profile

To see the picture of the plant, please view profile and where my picture should be there IT is. Unfortunately, you will need a magnifying glass but I am going to try to get an enlarged picture to replace this one. Remember it is composed of two cottony balls, scrolly ribbon fiber and hair-- the wax and the fiber stick. To the naked eye this is what is seen. Who is going to help us all? Please come in now. Get rid of the underlying cause--get rid of it all. What if this organism-ecosystem thrives in an alkaline environment? How can the body have immunities to a plant? Did you know a waste product of fungi is CO2 like us, not O2 like other plants? Yet another poison we are being subjected to making us feel sick. Maybe we need to be eating burgers, candybars and drinking coke? OK , I guess I will try Oprah again. Still awaiting replies from medical mycologists in this country and Argentina.

there is a fungus among us...

Will any azole do? Thanks to Candy who gave me http://www.fungus.com/ I spent many hours last night reading case studies of people who have had weird fungus infections and invariably something that ended in zole was prescribed and had a curative effect. When I went to UC Davis I showed the Doctor my tube of Clotrimazole, available at any drug store, and she said it would not hurt me. Too many questions left unanswered, too many things left unknown.. I also went online to sign up for Oprah and just ended up sending her a link to a video that my nephew made who is in the Army in Afghanistan. I can't go anywhere--someone might get this from me. I don't know.

22 hairs to the pimple

Hello! I am very happy tonight because I just e-mailed R.G.Vitale in Buenos Aires and it went through. I also e-mailed Thomas Volk who is a medical mycologist and seems very interested in new things and seems to be focusing on weird fungus infections originating from Mexico to South America. Someone will step up to the plate. I feel very sad because robert and Mary have decided that I am not a very good Christian or maybe not one at all because I was antagonistic when they told me only the Lord could fix this thing and I was in selfwill for wanting to contact experts because Morgellons is an anathema and a political no-no--just see where you get-dead- kind of thing like Silkwood or Erin Brockavich--and no one will listen to you and just stop because you think you are someone when you are no one and the devil has deceived you because you saw the plant. Whatever. So what if I saw the plant? Have I been cured?

just for you Candy

Hello honey, Please tell your loved one to drink grapefruit juice with 10 drops of Grapefriut Juice Extract and if he or she can find CVS Microbial Silver Gel, just go ahead and put it where ever. Borghese Fango mud will have a dramatic effect also. Oils are better than anything else. Any oil. We are flyin by the seat of our pants. Just trying to stay alive. I am sorry if I get the hopeless thing going on. I really do love life and laughter.
New paragraph. So and why is it always so--for the last two days I have been trying to contact R.G. Vitale in Argentina but the 411 operators there can never answer the phone to give the operators here the number. I guess I will have to e-mail her. I will not give up. I am even (and I cry here) willing to go on Oprah if nesessary to get this thing understood and known. I know that this is a simple thing and we could all be well if only someone would listen. I hate the limelight, I had enough of that and it creeps me out. BUT----I am willing if that is what it takes I pray to God I won't have to. Tomorrow I will look up more medical mycologists and e-mail them.

and in the end..the love you make is equal to the love you take

I know that no one but me is reading this but it is OK because keeping a diary has been known to be valuable for many reasons. John Taylor has not responded. I thought that the medical mycologist located in Berkeley was the same John Taylor who worked at the college, had his number and called him. After hearing a bit of my story he directed me to Dr. Pappagianis who is an MD said --I CAN NOT HELP YOU. I really do not care that I am going to die, because none of us really ever die. You know that this is really true.

the Media??

Hi, Dr. Striker put a block on my e-mails to him. Hmmmmm. Well, I think I am going to have to go public. You know, the NEWS. I think that everyone who has been researching Morgellons has their reputation and ego at stake and cannot receive any information that contradicts their suppositions. Don't yalll jes hate suppositions? I KNOW I DO. God showed me the plant and then He grew the thing on my bedsheet and then I remembered I saw the plant on a postcard. Is anyone out there? Is anyone out there who can help me??? And thousands of others? It is so goldarn simple. But who am I going to call? So far what I see is Evil , Evil as a definition of self interest. The stupidist thing is, I actually have at least a partial answer to the Morgellons phenomenom. Every day that goes by the plant grows and puts out more spores and they grow into more seed and the slime producing bacteria that eats the dead algea collects up on my skin causing something sticky and black shit comes out and red smiley liplookings thing come out and who even wants to live? It is not even really that you no longer want to be in your body because every day is another ALIEN day, every day you feel sick, unable to function, weak, no longer able to see or think straight, you don't want to be in your body because it is too much work for nothing. I pray every night for The Lord to take me home. BEG. But He won't because I have the Plant. I guess that I just have to be patient and when the righteous soul steps up to get the word out the I can either be healed or go home. The latter is what I prefer.

and now Joni Mitchell

Hi all, I am sorry that I have been absent for a while. Well, because I am unable to drive my friend came over on Tuesday and gave me a ride to the Department of Agriculture to pick up the plant as it grows in the wild. Laura was very sympathetic and asked to be informed when I found out anything. Sweet and caring person. So, after a long day for me, I got out the camera I used when I was in Real Estate to take pictures of homes to take a picture of the plant and I could not get it to work. Endless changing of batteries, etc, shaking , praying, and so I completely flipped out and grabbed a butcher knife from my knife block and stabbed the wall. Unfortunately, in the process I cut my hand and after I threw the knife down I noticed that there was blood all over me and the kitchen, my feet, my socks, my pants, and my favorite jacket. Why oh why? I will tell you why. I have been shown--I know what is the cause of Morgellons and I have no one to tell it to. I talk to the researchers and they do not want to hear. I e-mailed John Taylor, a medical mycologst yesterday and I heard nothing from him today. Did any of you ever read Flowers for Algernon? Case in point. And now I find out the Joni Mitchell has it. Look it up for yourself. I am ready to go insane because I have at least part of the answer to the evil that is causing so much suffering and suicide. I can easily see how I could be next--not that I believe in it but this crap just puts you to the end and then why go on?

medical mycology

Yesterday was my Birthday so I was on the phone all day because all friends and family live elsewhere. I contacted the Fungi department at UC Berkeley and they suggestd looking up a medical mycologist who if they personally did not know what the plant was would know someone else who would. I found John Taylor at Berkeley but he is unavailable until the 19th. So then I e-mailed RB Stricker who has done Morgellons research but seems to be more involved with Lyme Disease Research and gave him the chance. Someone will help us I know. Huge love to you all who are suffering. God is with us.

I don't think I will ever be able to get the font I want printed. I guess it is only important because I am an artist. Well, today I had a lengthy conversation with Dr. Kilani from Clongen. He presented himself as a very loving and professional researcher. Unfortunately, Morgellons has fallen out of favor with the research fellows and no one wants to align themselves with it. I also contacted Vitaly Citovsky who researched agrobiomedics in relation to Morgellons two years ago and he was not interested. End of that story. Dr. Kikani told me to find a plant biologist so I guess that will be my next search. I did ask Dr. Kilani if he wanted to win the Nobel Prize and he said yes but not for the million dollars just to be of service. I really liked that guy and told him so. He also said he thought that this thing was communicable and was happy to hear that my son had taken a job elsewhere and moved out. So there ya go.

Day two

I think that the Ariel typeface I chose was ignored. Today I called and e-mailed a scientific researcher at Clongen Labs in MD, told him my story and so far he has not stood up to receive the potential Nobel Prize. I battled several anxiety attacks and then e-mailed the World Health Organization in Argentina. Most likely with a click my message can be translated into Spanish. Do you think he wants to save thousands of people who have the plant living and propagating on and in their skin? Or maybe like every one else that thinks "thisisnotinmyjobdescription" he will not be of help either. I know the right person will step up to save thousands of lives sooner or later. Just a week or so ago a 9 year old boy with this infestation killed himself. I would have done the same thing a year ago but suicide is the chickens way out and against my personal code of ethics. But who knows?Apparently as this thing takes over more of your skin, splinters start coming out instead of the horrifying fuzzy seed pods, innocuous fibers, black spores and hairs that are relatively painless. I have had several splinters come out--some pop out and I scream and jump because it is with such force--and others just seem to float to the top of the skin on my fingers and then with a tad of a scrape they come off and I put them in a plastic baggie or on a piece of tape. This is THE EVIL as my friend Robert in SC calls it. I called a Biosystematics Organization who are involved with insects which live on humans and the response was disbelief and resistance. No Nobel Prize for them either. I sometimes wonder if I do nothing to prevent the plant from taking over, how long would it take?

The Plant

Hello!

So simple is this font, like when we learned to read.
Today I called the Department of Agriculture in Fairfield and told them not to send the
plant to the State. If you send a plant to the State you never get it back. And if they can
not identify it, well then they just throw it in the wastebasket. In my case that would be like
throwing myself into the wastebasket, or not actually myself but my physical body.
Then I called the Sherrifs Department and Julia told me the only plants they identify are
Marijuana plants. However, she did give me the name of a Botany professor she knew
and so I called him. He thought my predicament was fascinating but thought he was not
up to the challenge--especially now that he was teaching physiology. But he would think on
it and call me back.