Ammonia?

I have not been able to do very much with my hands for the last 6 months because all the seeds were in growing mode, got too big for the skin to contain them and started bursting out---what is refered to in this modality as "lesions". But, oh whoa, it is not just exactly the seeds in the packets it is also the seeds on the ropes. In the spring they all grow. All of the elements of this propagation are going on all the time but growing season is the worst. Last year I almost died. I was covered with it all. When I took a bath there was a black ring from the spores-seeds. Then the cotton balls came out in the bath----looked like dandylion seeds in the bath water. Just like an algae float. I was so sticky everything I touched was covered by a waxy residue. I could not wear clothes that touched my body due to pain and itch. I was so weak I could not drive 4 blocks to the nearest store without having to sit in the car for ten minutes to rest up. If there were more than 3 people in line I would just have to leave. I have been Queen of Denial or Swedish Stoic all my life and in this situation it could no longer work. The pan handlers outside of 7-11(my grocery store--prices better than standard even if choices are fewer)--started saying God Bless you sister instead of asking me for a handout. Oliver, my youngest son, was in Italy at the time and picked up that I was close to death and told me that he knew. I knew that my body was almost too poisoned to stay in it. I was not ready to go. My affairs were not in order. You know how it is to die. The container of flesh becomes too small and you start expanding out of it. I felt that and said I am not ready. So here I am today cleaning my floor with ammonia because my hands are usable(I am not saying not without lesions but they are on the palms of my hands and the backs of my fingers and I can use them) and then see the plant everywhere. I sprayed a solution of ammonia on the hardwood floor and noticed it bubbling up. Weird. I looked closer and saw the wax melt and only fibers and hair were left. I have been living with this thing for a year and a half and know all of its characteristics. It is very straightforeward and simple. This plant is trying to propagate itself everywhere; so does every other plant, mold, bacteria, (and man)etc. So I am not in wonderment or criticism here, my main concern is how do you get this thing to live on you? I am terrified to be around anyone for fear that they may get it from me or my house. No one should get this thing, not even Hitler. I am still alone with no answers because who wants to talk to a nobody--perhaps a crazy person--or someone who is going to blow their shaft. I don't know. I feel sad tonight--not hopeless but sad. Anyway it seemed that the fairly week solution of ammonia that I used for cleaning had a curative effect on my skin so I put it on my head. We who are suffering will try anything.

Yes, I did...

Howdy hi!! The bad stuff first. A comment was posted from morgellonspgpr.wordpress.com yesterday and the person had the audacity to say I will never find the cause-just work on becoming symptom free. I figured he had squeezed a snake and got some kind of oil out of it that he was selling. Decide for yourself. The moment was right so I plead our cause to Oprah. Who is more powerful than her? She says jump and you become airborne (no pun intended). I will try anything. I told her I did not want to be on TV, but I would adore to meet her. Maybe she can just do the story and I won't have to go. I read a bunch more creepy medical reports and in North and South America anyway, there is something called SPIROTRICHIOSIS which has something in common with the black specks, etc. It lives on grasses and you have to inhale alot of spores or get them into an open wound. The treatment is Potassium Iodide and/or Itraconazole. There is that zole again. I guess it is that I am poor that no doctors want to help me--by poor I mean no medical insurance they can milk. The first dermatologist I saw kept saying "but you are self pay". I am a Real Estate Agent, had been off work for two weeks, had $25,000 in the bank, the visit was $65.00 and she did not want me to come back. Go figure. Whatever happened to the Hippocratic Oath? Is it now hypocrisy? ....snark... the Hypocrisy Oath. Oh, that was bad. I meditate and pray for all of us every day.

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To see the picture of the plant, please view profile and where my picture should be there IT is. Unfortunately, you will need a magnifying glass but I am going to try to get an enlarged picture to replace this one. Remember it is composed of two cottony balls, scrolly ribbon fiber and hair-- the wax and the fiber stick. To the naked eye this is what is seen. Who is going to help us all? Please come in now. Get rid of the underlying cause--get rid of it all. What if this organism-ecosystem thrives in an alkaline environment? How can the body have immunities to a plant? Did you know a waste product of fungi is CO2 like us, not O2 like other plants? Yet another poison we are being subjected to making us feel sick. Maybe we need to be eating burgers, candybars and drinking coke? OK , I guess I will try Oprah again. Still awaiting replies from medical mycologists in this country and Argentina.

there is a fungus among us...

Will any azole do? Thanks to Candy who gave me http://www.fungus.com/ I spent many hours last night reading case studies of people who have had weird fungus infections and invariably something that ended in zole was prescribed and had a curative effect. When I went to UC Davis I showed the Doctor my tube of Clotrimazole, available at any drug store, and she said it would not hurt me. Too many questions left unanswered, too many things left unknown.. I also went online to sign up for Oprah and just ended up sending her a link to a video that my nephew made who is in the Army in Afghanistan. I can't go anywhere--someone might get this from me. I don't know.

22 hairs to the pimple

Hello! I am very happy tonight because I just e-mailed R.G.Vitale in Buenos Aires and it went through. I also e-mailed Thomas Volk who is a medical mycologist and seems very interested in new things and seems to be focusing on weird fungus infections originating from Mexico to South America. Someone will step up to the plate. I feel very sad because robert and Mary have decided that I am not a very good Christian or maybe not one at all because I was antagonistic when they told me only the Lord could fix this thing and I was in selfwill for wanting to contact experts because Morgellons is an anathema and a political no-no--just see where you get-dead- kind of thing like Silkwood or Erin Brockavich--and no one will listen to you and just stop because you think you are someone when you are no one and the devil has deceived you because you saw the plant. Whatever. So what if I saw the plant? Have I been cured?

just for you Candy

Hello honey, Please tell your loved one to drink grapefruit juice with 10 drops of Grapefriut Juice Extract and if he or she can find CVS Microbial Silver Gel, just go ahead and put it where ever. Borghese Fango mud will have a dramatic effect also. Oils are better than anything else. Any oil. We are flyin by the seat of our pants. Just trying to stay alive. I am sorry if I get the hopeless thing going on. I really do love life and laughter.
New paragraph. So and why is it always so--for the last two days I have been trying to contact R.G. Vitale in Argentina but the 411 operators there can never answer the phone to give the operators here the number. I guess I will have to e-mail her. I will not give up. I am even (and I cry here) willing to go on Oprah if nesessary to get this thing understood and known. I know that this is a simple thing and we could all be well if only someone would listen. I hate the limelight, I had enough of that and it creeps me out. BUT----I am willing if that is what it takes I pray to God I won't have to. Tomorrow I will look up more medical mycologists and e-mail them.

and in the end..the love you make is equal to the love you take

I know that no one but me is reading this but it is OK because keeping a diary has been known to be valuable for many reasons. John Taylor has not responded. I thought that the medical mycologist located in Berkeley was the same John Taylor who worked at the college, had his number and called him. After hearing a bit of my story he directed me to Dr. Pappagianis who is an MD said --I CAN NOT HELP YOU. I really do not care that I am going to die, because none of us really ever die. You know that this is really true.